I know it sucks a lot. Taking that first little victory about the dishwasher is a major step in the right direction. Look for those victories everyday.
I had been with a woman for about 8 years when I found naked photos of her in a hotel room. I didn't take the pictures. Acting like a dope for a couple months I thought I could work things out. Then one day I read a great piece of advice. It said be a man and not beg, just get out with your head held high. Best advice I ever got.
I've found the most fantastic woman. We've been married for 16 years and have the greatest life. It's crazy how much she let's me spend on cigars!
You can have this life too my friend, but you have to something very important.
Keep your eyes open!
There are so many great woman out there that would love to be with a good guy like you. You've got to realize that they are everywhere! I found mine playing quarters at a keg party. We were by far the oldest folks there, but somehow it was fate.
I wish you the best of luck. Never ever let her get you down.
Revenge is a life well lived.