[Neuromancer]

Ya know, normally I don't air this kind of stuff, but with the events of the last two years, Marie's illness and recovery and my illnesses, getting hit like this two years in a row is really getting to me...it's like if I don't tell something to someone my heads gonna explode...this is really getting to me...I didn't expect that when I finally reached my 60's my life would go to hell in a handbasket...thought I had everything pretty well covered and to loose so much because of outside forces really sucks...I just don't know which way to turn to try and get things unstuck...Marie and I were going to get married this year but now that's out (been living together for nine years)...and now I hafta worry what's gonna happen twelve months from now if there's not been a major recovery...how the hell do you start over again at age 63?