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Agreed. And as for the molestation, she was six. And there is proof of it besides her telling me. She listened in on a phone call accidentally one day when I was on MSN - she picked up the phone and her grandfather was talking to his sister about the SOB...it was her godfather of all people. I don't know how long it went on for, but it did happen. I recently used a poor word choice referring to her ordeal and my disability, and it made it seem like I thought mine was more serious. She now hates me of course, told me it was the cruelest thing I've ever said, and she lost all respect for me.

I understand people can move on, but I love this girl, even as a friend, and I really can't stand the thought of losing that. It sickens and breaks me almost as much as what that 70 year old bastage did 14 years ago...he was about 70 then. She recently went in to testify after I tried to reason and maybe convinced her, but her lawyer ended up telling her the evidence was too slim, so the old man won again. She used to love me, deeply, but I tried the local route...a little late in our relationship, she was going to come up a few months ago, but she wouldn't, especially not now. Before it was shyness and insecurity; now it's hatred and disgust.

And people wonder why I'm so depressed any more. I try to save the world I guess. I know I can't, but I try. She's worth trying for. Always will be.

So that's the roughest jist of it, John. The girl from Florida did use me I guess, but Canada did nothing.

If you'll excuse me, I need to go take an anti-depressant that isn't working...seeing the doctor tomorrow...and a painkiller for my back. Thank you all for your support, and may God bless you for it. Somebody needs help somewhere, and its not me in the least. Night.

The other girl? Just a mistake. For the record, the anonymity of a forum is easier than having a therapist stare at me and besides, I don't have the time currently, with physical problems, or the money.