[mosesbotbol]

I don't know your exact situation, but I have "been there" with pain pills and back issues.

You should find out what treatments are available on your health insurance. Most likely you'll need a referal from your GP. Mash made a lot of good comments. The amount of pain pills is a little troublesome to me, but whether they are a culprit to your behaviour, I doubt it a 100%.

I had trmendous back pain (acute sciatica for years) that doctors perscribed a cocktail of pain medications; that is what GP's do - perscribe drugs. If someone would end their life over pain, I was close to it. The sciatica was overwhelming at many points.

Paitents become reliant on pain pills and think it is OK since a doctor perscribed them. More people die from perscription drugs than all "illicit drugs" combined. Trust me, pills aren't an "answer" to back pain, anything beyond an anti-inflamatory and that is just temporary too. Don't rush into surgery either. Once your back is opened up, that's it. If post surgery scar tissue impeedes an nerve, there's little that can be done...

You are brave to mention such personal issues on an open forum and that goes to show you are willing to find a program that suits your goals. Best of luck with your situation.